360.

a nigga stick her tongue out

& catch the rain

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& not for you.

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even if you filmed it saved archive watch repeat & buy your faux hair in solidarity clone type cream french manicured tips even if then,

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not for you.

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(i love you means i do not stick my fingers in your mouth for sap. i place my hand on your wound & do not wash off the heat. i let you elaborate. means i am not malleable to your every whim. means i measure time with your absence. i hold the abyss. i love you means some trife shit. but,)

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a nigga stick their tongue out

on the train

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& not at you.

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even if they seem like they look at you you they look past at their reflection see and find a tunnel of kin. fancy that - here, there, hereditary. the dairy-free lactose intolerant lineage means they crave dark chocolate & milk no cows. means a midnight comes with they. means they never travel alone. means they smile suddenly

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& not at you.

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(i like you means i hold your gaze like porcelain. i rock the boat to make us laugh at what might be wet doom. i flare a nostril & flame out with you, sis. means i never forget even if it’s clear i have. means you live somewhere subcortical like in my gall my bladder in the valleys of my villi means bitch don’t worry if that conversation was never .docx saved as into me what mattered most was your temperature as we squeezed good night)

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a nigga stick his tongue out

& still has a brain

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& not by you.

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even if you poured hot scholarships down his chest asked his ass to fit into uniform khaki with a belt and a collared shirt for the donors dinner he can sit by himself sullen strategizing how to make all institutions brown-skinned, he will sit by himself,

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& not by you.

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(i hold you means i half all i got so as to share a taste. i have idle talks with your heartbeat while you sleep. means i write you down even when you don’t feel me up. i write you loud & on the bottoms of my feet)